Today I stopped trying to be 'someone' for somebody who never thought of me as anyone appreciated and important to them.
Inside I know the space I had for them is now crushed and broken...
Let the facts be out in the open and the truth be spoken...
In time it will be for the best...although I feel an emptiness...knowing what I considered worthwhile..proved shallow and unreal.
I've learned sometimes emotions seem clearer than perception..and eventually can lead to a heartbreaking revelation that someone cherished proves that their friendship was in fact deception.
I cry tears of realization that once again I believed the lies that were in disguise and covered up...
Honesty was masked with coy flattery. Why was I so darn naive?
I can and will move on...but I won't forget I was forgot and actually believed a lie. Not a lie out of the mouth...but of the heart.
That piece of friendship is now many torn apart....
I mustn't be sorry for the encouragement and love I shared...because I know what I offered was itself a dare. A dare to let someone be a part of me...who didn't find a reason to care.
Moments like these are rare... moments that I feel what I felt to be 'nothing' now and bare.
Thanks for the lesson learned...and always remembered. You were a 'lucky' someone who successfully got a part of the best of me. Now I'll throw away the scattered and useless pieces and leave you be.
dollface.
It hard to let someone you think you can trust with your heart into your life, and then they just use it for a plaything,
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