Even Now

Even now when I have come so far
I wonder where you are
I wonder why it's still so hard without you
Even now when I come shining through
I swear I think of you
And how I wish you knew
Even now

Even now
When I never hear your name
And the world has changed so much since you been gone
Even now I still remember and the feeling's still the same
And the pain inside of me goes on and on
Even now

Even now when I have come so far
I wonder where you are
I wonder why it's still so hard without you
Even now when I come shining through
I swear I think of you
And God I wish you knew
Some how
Even now


for rt

Foolish Friendship

Today I stopped trying to be 'someone' for somebody who never thought of me as anyone appreciated and important to them.

Inside I know the space I had for them is now crushed and broken...

Let the facts be out in the open and the truth be spoken...

In time it will be for the best...although I feel an emptiness...knowing what I considered worthwhile..proved shallow and unreal.

I've learned sometimes emotions seem clearer than perception..and eventually can lead to a heartbreaking revelation that someone cherished proves that their friendship was in fact deception.

I cry tears of realization that once again I believed the lies that were in disguise and covered up...

Honesty was masked with coy flattery. Why was I so darn naive?

I can and will move on...but I won't forget I was forgot and actually believed a lie. Not a lie out of the mouth...but of the heart.

That piece of friendship is now many torn apart....

I mustn't be sorry for the encouragement and love I shared...because I know what I offered was itself a dare. A dare to let someone be a part of me...who didn't find a reason to care.

Moments like these are rare... moments that I feel what I felt to be 'nothing' now and bare.

Thanks for the lesson learned...and always remembered. You were a 'lucky' someone who successfully got a part of the best of me. Now I'll throw away the scattered and useless pieces and leave you be.

dollface.

Going With Flow

Switching gears is absolutely needed sometimes, whether it’s letting go of people, careers, bad habits or anything that is emotionally draining or hindering you from getting to the place of your greatest potential. Sometimes it’s not easy but essential to complete and fulfill our greatest dreams and purpose. To not simply exist but to live a life of true happiness letting go is sometimes part of the process but remember appreciate it all and be thankful all while understanding that some things are here just for a season.

To whom it may concern

You’re just a memory now

Like a warm thought on a cold day

I wonder how you are

And it makes me sad that you went away

I know your still there

And I feel you sometimes

It makes me smile

When I think about your sweet eyes

I’m glad I was there for you when you needed

And that you have found the life you lost

I miss you sometimes

But that’s what friendship cost

Take care of yourself

And never forget

You have a life long friend

One I hope you don’t regret

 by DF