MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER

My beautiful daughter
You cannot know
How much my heart breaks
As I watch you grow
In time you’ll become
Independent and free
Always my daughter
And special to me
As you grow older
You will see
Through the eyes of a mother
Reflections of me
Past, present and future
All intertwined
My mother, your mother
All daughters you’ll find
Our reflections, not vanity
Mirrored lives we share
Always a daughter
Your mother, who cares.

YOUR NEW JOURNEY BEGINS

Therefore, the journey ends here,

With no fanfare, and no parade

Just a good by and good luck.

I did my job,

More like a labor of love

And now its time to let you go

If the life I gave, you did not suite your needs

Then I am sorry.

I gave all I had and more

It was a choice not a sacrifice

To give you the best life I could

I loved you from the moment I fount out about you

And will continue to love you after I am gone

You are my heart and soul

I could not be prouder of who you are

When times were a struggle I never felt poor

My life was enriched because of you

Threw the hard times and good times

Threw the laughter and tears

I would not change a moment

It is what has made you the strong, wonderful

Caring and loving person you are today.

So with that said

I say, goodbye my baby…

You have turned out to be a great MAN.

YOUR NEW JOURNEY BEGINS.

ALL DEBTS MUST BE PAID

When my white wings turned to black,

The realization was clear,

I've fallen out of favor,

When the light abandoned me,

As the darkness crept in all around me,

It lashed out and bound me in chains,

The predator sunk it's venom into it's prey,

Despair was it's poison.



When the happiness in my life was sapped,

And the sorrow flooded in,

I knew my life had been rendered a sin,

Even though I have been abandoned in darkness,

I still seek out the light.



My shackles and chains never were the type to shine,

They are in the mind and even though I can move,

I am as helpless as a child without it's mother,

Merely a prisoner without a warden,

Left in this jail to roam without an exit,

As the light in my soul fades to black,

So does the sparkle in my eye,

A fate accepted, a promise made,

In the end, all debts must be paid.

A WOMENS WORTH

You ask me what you’re worth –
I tell you -
“Look upon my hands.”
For scars that are there say more than words ever can.
You ask me what you’re worth –
I tell you –
“Look upon my head.”
For wounds that speak “I love you” is all that need be said.
You ask me what you’re worth –
I tell you –
“Look upon my side.”
For a sword was thrust, blood and water flowed so in me you could confide
You ask me what you’re worth –
I tell you –
“Look into my eyes.”
For all the love I feel for you I admit I can’t deny
You see- before the world was framed I knew you
I smiled when I looked upon your face
A beautiful little girl with eyes like mine, so full of love and grace
A smile that lit a dreary room – tears to reveal a tender heart
I knew I would pay any price so we would never be apart
I knew I could not live without you so I sought a way to you
And believe me daughter to win your heart there is nothing I did not do
Why do all this you ask me – why suffer so much pain?
Don’t you know you are worth more to me than any riches I attain?
You are of great value, for I created you and formed you with my hand
And then I placed in you a desire to know me and seek my wondrous plan
You have great worth my daughter, a high price was paid for you
For the enemy came looking and asked what I would do
How much would you pay?  What is she worth? The enemy at last did cry.
This is how much, how much she is worth-
I stretched out my arms and died. 

Jesus

Lies Of Clueless Deceit

Within such words of beauty lays caution of true fault,
A lonely seed planted upon the silent soul of sweet remorse,
"To trust is to be trusted, While to lie is to be fooled"
Such quote of mine speaks to my heart with painful force,
While the future becomes nothing but a glimpse of burning past,
And lies upon deception cause heartbreak beyond ones relief.

Another face of simple nothingness sketched into depths mind,
A tornado of vicious confusion raps around a frozen heart,
As our relationship became nothing but lies of clueless deceit,
While tidal waves crashed over hurt body drowning my soul,
And tears of ones bright future evaporate into thin air,
Torturing my mind of insanity, beyond being ever whole.

Hollow throughout bones as my visions of your become dust,
The life you've come to choose is not love but perfect lust,
Decision become careless as your life will turn to mist,
The lies you began to tell will now haunt you in your dreams,
One thing to remember in life is its nothing as it seems,
Karma planted beautiful, upon the lips of a blue eyed devil.

Lost in Sunshine

I guess
Maybe
Im a little tired.

I guess,
Maybe
I dont know how to feel.


So
I guess Ill go down to the creek
and wash away my sorrows
and let the sun
rub warmth back into this tender, achy heart of mine.

I guess
All I needed in the firstplace
was some sunshine.

Everything else will someday come.

So Im on my way
to pulling myself out of this hurt
wiping away those pesky tears
that keep coming
and taking a deep breath.


life is all about losing

so you know what you will one day gain.

So here I am, Life.

Losing to a better cause.

crying for a future smile.


never again will I let this happen.
Never again will I be so vulnerable.

Never again
Will I lose something much too precious to me.

So cheers
let me drown my sorrow and loss


in sunshine.

Just Remember Me

When life's a struggle
and the world gets you down

just remember the one
who you turned their life around
when you think no one cares
and no one could understand
I will be here waiting
just to hold your hand
when you feel so neglected
and you feel so alone
you feel so unwanted
in every fiber of your bones
remember the one
who told you she cared
the one who promised you
to hold you when your scared
remember the times
that we cried together
and somehow just doing that
made everything seem better
so if tomorrow morning you wake up
and the darkness doesn't let you see
just remember the one who loved you
just remember Me    

FUTURE

Looking forward I see a hall,

All these doors but not a wall.

            As I walk and look on up

I see a sign;

“pick one door, pray its fine.”

Do not peak youll break the rules

And become gods greatest fools.

Take a walk inside your head,

Only you know what lies ahead.

I find a door that looks quite nice,

I go for it, but then think twice

            I see the door saved for me,

I walk on by and don’t look back

Each step forward past doors crack.

Is it time to choose a door,

Or must I look a little more?

Time will come to an end,

Will my choice be my friend?

I finally stop and close my eyes,

Then look up and see my prize.

            What’s inside is truly me!

It’s a box, but there inside

 Is the man full of pride.

Hard work and drive will be my key,

Necessary tools to set me free.

Its time for change, its time to grow.

Come on, lets do this, its time to go.

grafton derryberry 5/12

NEW OUTLOOK FOR 2012

LIFE IS LIFE AND WE ONLY HAVE ONE. NO MORE WASTING IT ON THE THINGS I CANT CHANGE AND START LIVING IT, I WILL TAKE THE TIME TO LOVE , LAUGH AND ENJOY THE SIMPLE THINGS, I WILL SET GOALS AND HOPES FOR MYSELF AND IF I DON’T EVER REACH THEM, WELL THEN I WILLL ENJOY THE JOURNEY TRYING, I HAVE TWO LOVES IN MY LIFE AND I WILL BE THERE FOR THEM WHENEVER THEY NEED ME, JUST AS A MOM SHOULD BE, I HOPE TO ONE DAY FALL IN LOVE AGAIN, AND IF I DON’T, THEN I WILL ENJOY THE LOVER OR TWO ALONG THE WAY,. I WILL TAKE TIME TO SMELL THE ROSES AND WATCH A SUNSET, SPEND MORE TIME WITH FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND NOT TAKE ANY OF IT FOR GRANTED, THIS IS MY LIFE , MY TIME, AND I WILL NEVER LIVE LIFE LIKE I DID THIS PASSED YEAR, I WILL TRY AND BE A BETTER FRIEND, SISTER AND MOTHER, I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO MY FUTURE, AND WHAT LIFE WILL BRING, LIFE IS A JOURNEY AND IM READY TO HIT THE ROAD.