Love... what a wicked game.

What happens when you fall in love with someone, who doesn't love you back? What are you suppose to do? Logical wisdom would suggest to move on. Move onto what, though? It's easy being on the outside looking in when saying that. It's easier to move on from someone when that passionate flame burns out. They say time heals all wounds. What if time has passed, but it's only glorified those wounds? That my friends would describe love. What a wicked game for them to play. To make you fall in love with them and to not feel the same.

No one is above or below love. Love can hit all of us and make everyone vulnerable. You can't beat it and you can't hide it. The more you try to fight it, the more it hurts. When you happen to fall in love, perception and reality can be two different views. Love should go like a fairy tale in your mind. You think since you feel it, everything will fit into its place. However, reality and love can be a hard thing to grasp. Sometimes that person just isn't in that same state of mind. That is a painful thing. It's easy to lose all confidence and hope within yourself. It makes you feel a lot of pain. Not only can it seem to be that you can't be with the one you love, but it makes you feel like something is wrong with you. However it may feel, it's probably not that way at all.  Falling in love isn't about being a great person. The most horrific, rotten, evil kinds of people in this world are capable of being loved. If the glove fits, then it must be a match.

Love stings everyone and can spread to everyone of us. You see a happy couple walking down the street. Or loving couples snuggling up next to one another in a movie . You think to yourself, they look like they're in love. They look so happy. They look like they don't have any problems in their lives. Why can't I have that? For every snuggle, hug, and kiss only tells half of the story. For everyone of those, there also was tears, anger, heartache, and especially pain involved as well. Where there is love, there will always be pain. When you're in love with someone who doesn't love you back, then it's just the pain to go through.

Committing to someone is the scariest emotional aspect for a person. Getting cheated on is painful. Dealing with a breakup is hard. Dealing with someone who you love, but who doesn't love you back? Forget about it! That tops them all. That is just wickedly cruel! It might not be cruel with intentions. It's totally and completely not the other persons faults. It's still wickedly cruel! They just don't understand, since they're not in love. They also can't control how they feel.

What doesn't kill you will make you stronger. I like those words. Those words should remind people that it's okay to get down. It's alright to feel a bit vulnerable and scared at times. Sometimes you'll get beat up a bit in life. It will really knock you down for a bit. That's okay, it can happen. Then one day, you're going to get up. You're going to get a bit meaner and tougher. You're going to give life a real butt kicking back. Then you'll tell tell yourself this. I might get knocked down, but I'll never get knocked out of the game. Keep your dignity and let these moments humble you as a person. They say scars are the road map to the soul. A lot of the pain and adversity you deal with in life, can help shape you into a better person. Pains and feeling weakness helps you grow into a stronger person,

Giving your love to someone shouldn't be looked as a bad thing. Rejection hurts and there's not one person who isn't capable of receiving it. What has happen can honestly happen to anyone. Just because someone isn't in love with you, doesn't mean they honestly think something is wrong with you.

It's hard trying to pull yourself from someone you love. When you're in love

You accept them for who they are. You have to if you love them. You adore the person they are and you kind of don't want to forget them

Maybe it will take time. Maybe you'll never fully get over them even. Love can be a hard feeling to push aside. If you accept reality, and accept everything for how it is, then it can help you move on at least.

MY TEENAGE DAUGHTER

When you were little
perhaps two or three
dressed in your crown
of ‘joie de vie”

You’d chat for hours
about all that you’d do
life was your stage
awaiting its cue

Off you would run
wind in your hair
seeking adventure
and those who would dare

Follow your lead
in search of the stars
conquer your quest
of never too far

Now a young teen
your passion remains
to discover adventure
touch and attain

Yet the world is much bigger
with many a foe
so be safe in your travels
wherever you go

Take my love with you
pocket your pride
and I will continue
to pray Gods by your side..

IF MY SON

If you can keep your head when all about you
are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
but make allowance for their doubting too;

...If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
or, being hated, don't give way to hating
and yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
and treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
and stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
and risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
and lose, and start again at your beginnings
and never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
to serve your turn long after they are gone,
and so hold on when there is nothing in you
except the will which says to them: "Hold on!"

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue
or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
with sixty seconds worth of distance run,
yours is the Earth and every thing that's in it,
and - which is more - you'll be a man, my son!

All debts must be paid

When my white wings turned to black,

The realization was clear,

I've fallen out of favor,

When the light abandoned me,

As the darkness crept in all around me,

It lashed out and bound me in chains,

The predator sunk it's venom into it's prey,

Despair was it's poison.



When the happiness in my life was sapped,

And the sorrow flooded in,

I knew my life had been rendered a sin,

Even though I have been abandoned in darkness,

I still seek out the light.



My shackles and chains never were the type to shine,

They are in the mind and even though I can move,

I am as helpless as a child without it's mother,

Merely a prisoner without a warden,

Left in this jail to roam without an exit,

As the light in my soul fades to black,

So does the sparkle in my eye,

A fate accepted, a promise made,

In the end, all debts must be paid.

Just a Thought

I want to strip you down to nothing, destroying all your pride, love, and self worth,

 Leaving you with nothing but confusion and pain and as you stand there

With tears in your eyes and a heart so broken you cant move,  I want to leave you there, alone, to deal with it, to handle it, to figure out how your going to live, with nothing, then I’m going to leave knowing I did this to you and I'm not going to feel anything, not remorse or sadness or even giving a fuck about what I did to you, I wont look back to see if your alive or dead, and as the months go on, you wont even be a thought in my mind, I will have moved on to new things and new people, because you see I already took everything I wanted from you, you have nothing to offer me, and to be quite honest you never did. I used you for my own selfish needs and if it wasn't you I’m sure it would have been someone else you just happen to be there at the right time, then Ill tell you one more lie before I go , and that we will always be friends, that way I know I will cut you to the bone, because Ill be leaving knowing you will think about me and miss me even after I did this to you because you are just that stupid, and if you do ever cross my mind I will laugh about how I got away with what I did to you, and how you now have to try and pick up the pieces and move on, as if you could. I will pride myself knowing how badly I hurt you. Someone who gave unselfishly, that truly loved me and wanted nothing but the best for me, I will go on living and I will never give you a second thought. These are the things I want to do to you…. NO Wait… These are the things YOU DID TO ME.